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• 2 May, 2025
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Yesterday... was a real doozy. I'm sure I'm going to be getting a lot of eyes on me now considering the situation I've accidentally involved myself in.

There's been a campaign for a long time now against BlackGryph0n, aka Gabriel Brown, who's allegedly groomed his now current wife since she was a young teenager. Within the past year, Bonk under the account of Brony Fandon't on BlueSky and Twitter has pushed hard for people to understand how deep Gabriel's actions go. There's a lot of information that's been covered up lately that is both beyond my comprehension and shocking to hear, especially considering there's more than just one victim. There's multiple. This concern about Gabriel has been extended to those who continue to support him. Some rightfully drop him, some lie and defend him (looking at you, dev team behind Billy Bust Up). One of his defenders was SaberSpark, someone I occasionally watched as a teenager. However, for the past month, people were told by Bonk to keep an eye out for allegations regarding Saber. They came to light yesterday, and it was revealed they were rape allegations. Saber had allegedly raped an anonymous victim at two Bronycons, conventions for My Little Pony.

With these kinds of stories, it's ideal to support the victim. However, if you've been online for more than a minute, you also know people will lie about assault. It's horrible. As a CSA victim, it pains me to know people will lie about this. However, I want to give the victim a chance, so I showed support while being open to listening to SaberSpark eventually tell his own side. However, the allegations were shared in two ways: through Bonk's accounts, and through a YouTuber named ILoveKimPossibleAlot, which I will shorten to KP.

KP was working on a long video alongside many friends of hers covering another alleged predator. I don't know very much about this specific case, but I do know that the video first touched on a channel titled DAGames. I won't go too deep into that since I am not knowledgeable. However, it is important to note that KP posted her video through a premier. This means the video was streamed live to an audience, with a live chat next to it. This means she and other moderators can interact with the viewers. Because I joined halfways through the video, I arrived at the time where SaberSpark's allegations were finally being brought up. However, I expressed concerns that setting the video to a premier could be seen as making a spectacle of a horrible situation. I also made clear I express my feelings as a CSA victim, to be clear that I express this point of view with a personal experience. That's when one of the collaborators of the video, Courtney Peet, came in and argued with me. Important context to know is Courtney was allegedly sexually assaulted by her sister, Lily Orchard. Lily Orchard is also very horrible for a slew of other reasons, including calling jewish creator Rebecca Sugar a Nazi sympathizer, and polluting discussion about Rebecca's biggest work, Steven Universe, with dishonest information about its creators, contributors, and storyline. Knowing this, I had nothing but respect for Courtney. I sympathized with being taken advantage of. I never experienced it like she had, but I felt her pain. I was completely unaware that she even contributed to KP's video.

After I expressed my criticism, Courtney proceeded to mock me. She and another viewer, Jack Drew, ganged up on me and belittled me. My CSA experience was downplayed as a "moot point," Courtney told me that I only came "to criticize," and I was treated horrificly. I felt like with the way words were expressed, I was being put down for having concerns at all. By the time I solemnly expressed how disrespectful they were both being to me, I saw Courtney appear in KP's video. I didn't have the heart to continue, as I felt myself shaking, so I quickly took as many screenshots of the conversation I could handle and closed the video. Other users screenshotted as well and posted to platforms like Twitter.

I woke up sick yesterday with a fever and cold. This sounds mundane, but for context, I rarely get sick. I'm lucky I have a strong immune system. However, this means that when I do get sick, I get hid hard. I nearly collapsed yesterday multiple times thanks to the fever. Combine this with the harassment I received, and I nearly broke into tears. I was reliving a lot of trauma, thankfully unconnected to my CSA experiences. I was scared.

I posted my experience and shared the screenshots in a reply to Bonk's post about the SaberSpark allegations. He apologized to me for my experience, and has gone on Twitter to express his disappointment in the video and KP. I hold no ill will against Bonk. However, I cannot say the same for Courtney or KP. KP was in chat, watching this as it happened. Courtney antagonized me, and another user who was a CSA survivor. I happened to be very outspoken about it, so that's what caused people to realize and be incredibly upset on my behalf.

I was surrounded with support from strangers. It shouldn't matter, but it made me feel a lot better... however, as each hour passed, I learned something different. Eventually, I learned Courtney was denying any wrongdoing on her YouTube channel. I didn't push myself to look for my own mental health. I saw people talking about how poor KP's video was, and I shared my experience in relevant threads. I wanted to share what happened to me by people who were supposed to care about victims. I received a lot of support I cannot express my infinite thanks for. I learned a lot about KP's video that I had missed; there was minutes long jokes making fun of serious situations, there was a lack of dignity in presenting the cases. It felt like serious allegations of sexual assault were being treated as nothing but drama. It's even worse, because KP has addressed serious situations with infinite tact before. She later claimed that this was her first time, but many users pointed out this lie. I'm convinced she is trying to damage control, because she took down the video entirely, as well.

Hours later, I learned some of the people I shared my stories with are also not the best or reputable sources. While it's evidence that Courtney has been hostile to more than just me, specifically anybody critical about or towards her, I've learned some of her detractors aren't great either. Someone I previously idly followed, SaiScribbles, expressed transphobic remarks as recent as late last year. I previously knew her due to her alternate universe of Steven Universe, called Switcheroo, where Spinel is a Crystal Gem and Pearl is not. To learn that she believes people who use it/its pronouns use them for attention and are not real transgender people hurt. I do not even use it/its pronouns. I used to be hesitant towards them as well due to a concern of not wanting to dehumanize them, specifically, putting them down. Once I learned that people asking for these pronouns are not being put down, but respected by using what they want, that's when I understood and became accepting. I didn't understand neopronouns either, but I learned to accept them. However, SaiScribbles actively mocks them. It's hurtful and transphobic. I also learned she's talked over people of color, that she believes "retard" is not a slur, etc. I can't speak on all of the situations, but I will say that I believe retard is a slur. I reclaim it personally in private spaces. I use it to refer to myself on occasion, but rarely. It's used against neurodivergent people to belittle them, to treat them sub-human and to "other" them. I understand the history of this term; it was not always harmful, but it was co-opted by malicious people. It's similar to the swaztika, where it originally was a symbol of peace, but stolen by the Nazis to turn into a symbol of hate. It's upsetting. I'm also deeply upset as a bisexual person, because she claimed the leaked concept art exploring romantic connections between Pearl and Greg from Steven Universe was nothing but "porn" by a bisexual author. It devestates me, because Rebecca Sugar has literally gone on record to state that because of biphobia, she could not include Pearl's bisexuality within the show. Pearl is not a lesbian. There are multiple other lesbian characters, like Ruby and Sapphire. We do not need to erase bisexual representation written by a bisexual person.

That's also when I learned someone that I shared my story with that day, Anthony Gramuglia (known as Ant) associated with SaiScribbles. Now, I don't believe guilt by association. However, when people brought up her making fun of neopronouns, her racism, her transphobia... he acknowledges these issues, but never condemns her for it. I felt so disappointed. I hope he recognizes her issues and calls her out on it, but considering that according to Sai, they talk every day... I don't think it will happen.

All of this happeend within the span of 8 hours for me. I'm only getting the downtime to write this all out now, while I'm still sick to hell and back. I wanted to get this out since I know there are a lot more eyes on me and they'll want to know my own point of view. Please let it be known I do not support anyone but Bonk. Bonk's been through a lot, including his own CSA, and is trying to do what he wishes people did back then: speak up against abuse.

Please, if you have the time, take a look at the allegations against SaberSpark. Thank you.